One of my instructors once told his class in less than a
couple of sentences that if they could learn to embrace in combat with the same
intensity they fuck with, that they would understand the engagement of combat
with more depth, sensitivity, relaxation, confidence and less fear.
My reiteration of those statements is that in our most
intimate moments we are in perfect harmony with our partner and QUIT is not
part of our vocabulary. The climax heightens as the passions boil and merge
into another state of euphoria and the fuck goes on, never ending until that
ultimate pleasure is achieved.
It’s the same with combat. It is a violent embrace that for
some has the same intensity. This battle for domination has no QUIT in it. This
violent climax heightens until Victory is won or your opponent is dead.
Fear is an emotion that is equal in both sexual and
combative engagements. Fear is ever present in our daily lives that you’ve most
likely experienced once again today. The car on the highway that cuts in front
of you nearly running you off the road. The broadcast on the news about the
people that lost their lives in a fire. E.coli outbreaks in restaurants that
you frequent. The threat of an attack if you’re in the wrong place at the wrong
time. Someone that you love that is stricken with disease. When you let fear
control you, you lose. When you allow fear to guide you, you win.
My reiteration of those statements has helped me prepare for
the unexpected without a spit of fear in my heart, for there is no QUIT in me!
I might get startled for a moment before I snap and then the fight is on and I
will not QUIT, for it is not allowed!
This is going to be a very tough round of chemotherapy over
the upcoming weeks and everything I’ve trained and learned about Fear and Quit
is going to be tested, make no mistake about it. The only one that is able to
get in my way is Me! That is an obstacle that I’ve seen many family members and
friends make some very difficult choices between rounds in their lives. I’ve
learned some very important lessons in winning as well as quitting, with and
without dignity.
I find it kind of funny that we can go anywhere to learn to
fight in a variety of fighting styles, but we’re on our own when we want to
learn how to fuck. It is one of the few natural things that we still struggle
to teach ourselves how to do. I apologize for using an improper term, but my
interpretation is people that have sex haven’t conquered their fear of it.
People that fuck have no fear and are confident in facing a challenging
intimate embrace with their partner, through whatever it takes with no quit in
their hearts.
Another instructor taught me a lesson about quit when she
hammered her student, a member of her fight team about pushing through
weakness, facing fear HEAD ON without quit in your heart, but QUIT he did, and
he deserved all the embarrassment he got because he not only let himself down,
he let the other members on his team down. They had to face a forfeit and now
needed to work harder to in order to win because someone had that QUIT in them.
Thank you Rhonda! Should you ever read this, Thank You for sharing with the
world that was listening!
If I’ve struck a chord or pinched a nerve in you, GOOD! For
me this is about my NOW and if I’m able to help you prepare for your NOW when
it comes then I hope it serves you as well as it has served me!
I have known so many people that succeeded in so many
things, but gave up on themselves when it got tough. Well I’m here to show you
different so you have another great example to compare with.
I LOVE you! And I lOVE that you LOVE me in return. I love
serving you. I love your company. I love being there for you when I’m needed.
You are what makes me Great! I’m just a reflection of your greatness right back
at you!
And, I’ll be dammed if some fucking disease is going to
stand in OUR fucking way of the greatness WE share together!
I refuse to stand down and let this disease take ME away
from YOU!
That is how you have to feel when making certain choices in
our lives! Not with shitty metaphors and fortune cookie crap, but with real
EMOTION! Real LOVE that causes real PAIN that really fucking hurts and makes
you mad as fuck and ready for battle! Whether it’s facing closure during your
end of life planning, or struggling through life and its many complications in
your life or the life of someone you love.
As I sit here and think about what is in store for me I
reflect on our many teachers that gave of themselves and taught us (most in
secretive silence) very difficult lessons about fighting a different kind of
fight. A fight where it’s you against you. The Strongest you VS. The Weakest
you. A lesson that I learned from a great man that just happened to be my
Father, is that you’re only as strong as your weakest link. That can be applied
in every aspect in our lives. Very wise words to Heed!
I AM!
I am, that I am, Eternal I am.
I am an Invincible Source of Strength and Power.
Nothing can touch ME!
I Reign Supreme Over Everything!
Well I got my Stem Cell Transplant at 2pm and with all the prepping and so on it only took 45 minutes. Everything went so well I can post videos shortly after.
