Round 7 - Neulasta 'The Humbling' cont.

Friday May 10th, 2013

Let me first explain that the morning after effects of Neulasta  couldn't be topped by an hours worth of swift kicks in the nuts by the best nut kickers in the world.

From my teeth to the floating chips in my elbows my body was riddled in pain. I'd have to wait to drink some more and get some food in my system before I could take my morning meds and pain meds. My body was having a very difficult time managing this all over boney pain I was in.  Every step I took hurt. My legs hurt from walking the day before and even more now. My stomach was in a tailspin and we needed to come up with a plan that was going to work because the only thing that I could imagine that was worse than this was vomiting through this pain.

Tiny sips here and there, a bite here and there got me through the morning. Later on I could take my meds and continue to work on my liquid and solid intake for the rest of the day.

It was tough to ask if was OK to lay down for a half hour or so to keep it together, but my body was spent and I was having a tough time feeding it.

I can only imagine the suffering that my aunts, uncles, friends went through without these medicines. It was a battle! France had my corner and watched over me every step of the way. I was only able to take baby steps, my knees would buckle if I tried to move quickly and my back really hurt not just from the Neulasta, but from my back injuries and pinched nerves (T2, T3, T4, T6, T7).

Doing anything other than resting and trying to slowly feed myself was my goal for the day. I shut my phone off, never turned my computer on and didn't even find it comfortable sitting upright.

I had to do blood work and France was going to take me before she went to work. My goal was to be able to take care of myself while she was gone or call someone to sit in.

We had the windows open most of the day and the fresh air started to work it's magic. I ate all my lunch around 1;30 and we headed to Mt. Auburn hospital for my blood work.

I know I looked as sickly as I felt, but ya gotta do whatcha gotta do.

I depended on my pain meds to get me through the night. Tomorrow's another day. Hopefully a better day!

The Neulasta is something that I have to take after my chemo and this was the lessons that I learned from it. I can't imagine how other people cope with the bone discomforts of their injuries or arthritis. It is an emotional stress as well. You're desperate to do anything, yet you can't do anything. For my next bout with Neulasta I'll have a better game plan that will yield better results.

Don't misjudge my battle cry because....

I AM!

I am, that I am, eternal I am.
I am an invincible source of strength and power.
Nothing can touch me!
I reign supreme over everything!